October 13th, 2021 | #MentalHealthAwarenessDay

Dear Everyone,

Yesterday, I did not write a press release.

Well I did, but it was illegible as of broadcast time.

I'll read what I wrote now.

Dear Republicans,

I noticed that y'all have started threatening to let us default on our debt. I take issue with that unless you want to be sincere with y'alls aim.

Y'all are trying to prove that y'all are fiscally responsible, but you are just playing for the cameras. Some of us read the newspaper. We know that you spend money just at quickly as the Democrats.

It occured to me that the real republican strategy coming up for 2024 might be to ask the federal government to prove it's own existence in the current sense by defaulting on our debt. I imagine this would a pre-curser to your ultimate aim of single party rule.

The position you seem to be rhetorically cornering yourself into is that the Federal Government shouldn't exist. 

And that was it. I didn't even sign it.

And while I know I am late for #MentalHealthAwarenessDay but that’s kind of my point. So I want to say be patient with your friends and loved ones everyone has their own struggles. Ask for help when you need it and offer help when you can.

I have struggled with a myriad of mental health issues since I was a child. From panic attacks to an almost a lifelong depression. And that's why I didn't finish my press release from yesterday. I fell into a pit of self-doubt and wallowed instead of doing my work.

So instead of a Press Release today I am releasing this public diary.

The truth is I am struggling to crawl out of a deep depression following by a cascading trickle of life events that I have been avoiding processing.

All the while I've been holding myself to an impossible standard which when I fall beneath I punish myself with anxiety.

But I'm doing something about it. I am starting to believe in myself. I exercise regularly, I'm eating well, I even cleaned up my apartment from the sty it had become.

I am resisting that growth too. I have made great progress, but the guilt over wasted time is sometimes too much to bear. I am also afraid of suceeding. What if I don't stop myself from getting elected President, and I actually have to help this country find a new vision for the future.

What if I'm right and I become the man I want to be.

That's a scary thought too when for far too long I have found comfort in inaction and apathy.

I'm not sure what I am getting at, I just want to say to anyone who may be struggling with their mental health in this weird time. You're not alone, and it will get better as you decide to work to make it better. Remember that the negative repetitive thoughts in your head are not facts and that you are more than the sum of your feelings in the present.

The world is a better place with you in it.

So, you be kind to you.

And remember Please don't vote for me.

Sincerely,
J.T. Freeman